Wednesday, December 24, 2008



It's been extremely hard for me to not talk about this but I didn't want there to be any chance to spoil the surprise for Chad's family (they weren't telling them until they got to Michigan for x-mas). Chad proposed to Natalee on Sunday while hiking in the mountains under a waterfall by their new home in South Carolina. From the sounds of it he did an amazing job and was even able to sneak champagne for them to celebrate. While this was a long time coming we are all shocked and most importantly ecstatic. In fact when Natalee called to tell me the news while they were hiking back to the car I told her she was lying like a 100 times! I couldn't be happier for them and I can't wait to get this planning started. I knew eventually I would get to pay back my lil sis for everything she's done for me in the last 7 years (from planning a wedding to me having a baby). While I'm soo mad I can't be in Michigan with them to celebrate, we will do lots of celebrating in Punta Cana! XXOO

Friday, December 19, 2008

Addi Update

So, my little peanut was actually feeling a lot better last night, but still had a temp. of 102! I decided to make another doctor's appointment for today. I asked her school to call me though at noon to give me an update on whether or not she had a temp. Well, she was still temp free so I was questioning whether or not I really needed to take her to see the doctor this afternoon. After asking a couple of people and convincing me that I'm not a crazy overbearing mother I decided it wouldn't hurt. Luckily we got to see Dr. Sperber who Addison just loves. She's amazingly gentle and Addi seems so intrigued by her. GUESS WHAT? DOUBLE EAR INFECTION!!! I am so happy that I took her because Lord only knows how long this would of been bothering her without getting on antibiotics. Dr. Sperber thinks that whatever she was fighting could of lead to the ear infections and we're crossing our fingers that the antibiotics will help continue fighting whatever she has and there will be no more temps. The past 2 weeks haven't been the best when it comes to Addison's health, all the crying and sleepless nights we've had to endured, but I can finally say I'm getting my happy baby back. Its so weird how I took for granted how happy and loving she normally is. The last day in a half has been full of "ohh your so cute" now that she's able to laugh and smile more. I hope we don't have to go through this again for a long time because I love having my cute baby girl. Did I tell you she's trying to teach Roxy how to count?! Yup, Addi is now counting to 10 and singing along to her hippo piano that Grandma Cheryl got her for Christmas. So, keep your fingers crossed that these beautiful days of having the most amazing almost 22 month old will continue for a long time to come. I can get back to my routine and hopefully feel somewhat happy with my body when I leave on vacation in about 6 weeks! YIKES!


Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Am I a Bad Mom? ;o(

My Poor Baby is Still Sick!
I think this is the worst part of being a mom. Addison is still running a temperature and we have no idea what the heck is going on with her. I don't think its anything serious because she seems to be fine most of the day but this stingy fever just won't go away. Yesterday I had to pick her up from school because her temperature got to 103.8! Today I got another call because she was at 101.6. After going back and forth between the doctor's office and her school they were able to give her some Motrin to help control it. I feel like the worst mother ever because I can't stay home with her and just let her rest and get better. This is for sure when I second guess myself by making the decision to be a working mom rather than a stay at home one. Anyway my poor baby is getting a little more sleep so I think it will help her fight whatever it is that continues to cause this fever. If this fever sticks around for another day or so I think we may need to pay a visit to the doctor again and ask them to put her on some antibiotics. While I like that her doctor doesn't grab for his prescription pad every time we're there, but I think this may be getting a little out of hand. I just want my happy baby back! ;o(

Monday, December 15, 2008


Unfortunately Addison is sick once again! Poor baby just can't seem to catch a break and I feel like I haven't slept in months. Last week John's mom was here and we thought she was possibly getting through a bug and of course the worst of this "bug" hit her yesterday with a 103 temperature! John had to stay home with her today since I've basically used up all my vacation time for the other times she's been sick or got a boo boo. We decided since she's been battling this for a week now we should probably get her checked out even though we knew they wouldn't be able to do anything. One fun thing that came out of the $25 doctor visit is Addison is still only 21lbs with her clothes and shoes on. Its kind of funny because we were just talking about it yesterday wondering how much she now weighs. I'm happy to report that she can now wear 18 month clothes as long as the pants have that amazing invention with the elastic inside the pants that help tighten the waist. So, we'll see how the next couple of days go but as you can see from the pictures below we busted out the sunglasses again and she's a whole new woman. I don't know what it is but when she puts on those sunglasses it takes all her worries away. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that perhaps they worked some magic and she'll get some good sleep tonight and can go to school tomorrow!

Monday, December 8, 2008

Mind Over Matter

Wow! Its been a while since my last blog entry!!!

Well, life has been a little crazy since we left to go to SC for Thanksgiving. We had an amazing time, honestly any time that I get to spend with my family is always great. While sometimes we seem to get on each other's nerves we take a 5 minute time-out and things are back to normal. I love my family with all my heart and miss them everyday I don't get to see them. ;o(

So, back to the title of this blog! Most of you probably aren't aware that I have a slight anxiety issue. I have no idea where it came from but ever since I got pregnant with Addison and had to fly to Washington its been downhill from there. This is kind of gross but it started with John picking me up from work and us heading to the airport, I wasn't feeling all that great like I had to go to the bathroom and I made him stop at a fast food restaurant so that I could go. Well, the anxiety of being stuck in the car and not being able to use the restroom for a little while kind of freaked me out. I was making myself more sick and had no idea if I was going to make this trip. Seriously, I was thinking about saying "o'well we'll just have to try again tomorrow". In my head I knew there is no way that can happen. Anyway that's how this how anxiety with flying started and I'm beyond upset about it. I've been flying my whole life, probably more than most people so for me to have an issue with flying was just absurd. We've been so lucky to fly back and forth to Michigan with Addison but only with the help of Imodium A-D for me. Before I figured out that this actually eases my anxiety poor John would be stuck taking care of Addison while I was running back and forth to the bathroom or sitting in the airport thinking I was so sick and didn't know if I would be able to get on the plane. I talked to my doctor about this issue I was having and she ensured me that I wasn't crazy and this is a temporary thing that actually is very common in most new mothers and/or women who become pregnant. She was telling me that some women have it even worse where they can't go over bridges! So you'll never guess what happened to us yesterday!

John's mom flew in Saturday night for a week visit! Yesterday we decided to take Addison to the zoo for her very first time (she had a blast). We left the zoo at 5pm and went to get some dinner at International mall. We left around 6:30 and on our way over the Howard Franklin bridge there must of been a terrible accident because we found ourselves at a complete stop and nowhere to go. I've never been in a situation like this, John and his mom were talking about how this would happen all the time when they lived in Washington but I can honestly say I've never been in a situation where your on a bridge and all you can do is wait because no one is moving. I was doing great at first but then all these thoughts started running through my head. "What if I have to go to the bathroom?, what if I end up feeling nauseous and have to get sick?, what if I have a panic attack right now in front of my mother in-law and baby?" This is when I started talking myself down explaining that I am freaking out about nothing, this is all in my mind and I'm ok. Its almost like when you see those scary movies and people see ghosts and they say "your not real, your only in my mind..." this is how I was feeling. I can't believe that I have to go through this. I shouldn't be surprised that something like anxiety has come into my life. I swear out of all my siblings and family members I seem to have the most medical issues so why not just add one more psychological problem on top of it. While I've told myself I will never let anxiety and phobias rule my life I just wish these thoughts that enter my mind occasionally would never return. I think its a huge step to be capable of calming myself down and realizing that I'm the one who actually has control but once again I have to ask "WHY ME?"!