Saturday, January 31, 2009

Wanna Be My Friend?

Life has been pretty much consumed with figuring out how Facebook (FB) works. Its unlike MySpace by the fact that is just simple. When I say "simple" I mean there's no pretty backgrounds and it comes across like its not as much work to keep it updated. I just always assumed that MySpace and FB were the same but they are both totally different. While I could be speaking prematurely since I haven't totally figured out the world of FB, but I'm super excited that its not as time consuming and there's sooo many people I know on here. Anyway I'm super excited to be part of the FB community! ;o)

Wednesday, January 28, 2009


Besides me getting laid off last week we also had another day that I wanted to throw up on Wednesday. As you can tell from my countdown on this page John and I are leaving for Punta Cana next week! Well, I have no idea what I was thinking because I assumed we didn't need a Passport to travel there. I looked up the information at the beginning of December and thought I read you just need ID and supporting documents. I told John that and we were relieved we didn't have to deal with getting a Passport before we left. Well, some how John decided to have an epiphany last Wednesday and couldn't quite find the same information that I did. He Googled this topic and come to find out we do indeed need a Passport to travel to Punta Cana. I think I decided when the topic of "NEED PASSPORT TO TRAVEL OUTSIDE THE U.S." was all over the news a couple of years ago I just ignored it. Honestly, I think I can blame it on Addison since I was either sleep deprived or pregnant. Once again John came to the rescue. He found an expediting company (A Briggs that handle these types of situations and by paying ALOT of money you have no problem getting your passport quickly. So, we rushed around like crazy last Wednesday afternoon to get all the documentation in place, pictures taken, went to the court house and then FedEx to ship which cost us $27 each way! While I was so skeptical even though John was convincing me that this company was legit and I had nothing to worry about, we got our passports yesterday!!! I couldn't be more happy. Even though we can now add several hundreds of dollars to how much this trip is costing us, its going to be well worth it. John and I need this time together so bad and I need time away from thinking about everything. My mom arrives next Tuesday afternoon, hope she's ready to take notes because we've got a silly baby on our hands. ;o)

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Back to the Dr.

I took Addison to the doctor this morning since she was still complaining about her ears bothering her and still had temperature. Since her nose hasn't really ever stopped running from the last time she was sick last month the doctor is assuming she might have a sinus infection now. Her ears actually didn't look too bad, Dr. Sperber said they're right on the edge of being an ear infection but she really wouldn't call it that. We are starting another round of antibiotics for 10 days to see if this will clear everything up. If she's still not better we will do 1 more round and hopefully by then it should be all done. We're just thinking since she didn't get a 100% better last time this probably moved into her sinus' causing the infection. It doesn't help either than my dad was just here and left super sick (poor guy always gets sick when he leaves Florida to go back to Michigan). So, I'm crossing my fingers that we only have to do the one treatment and Addi will be able to live without a runny nose. I'm also praying this is the last day of her having a fever since I have a million and one things to do before we leave for our trip and don't have any help with Addison when we get back! YIKES!

Monday, January 26, 2009

Here We Go Again!

Addison was running a little temperature Saturday night but it looked like she was back to normal on Sunday. Well, due to my little peanut not sleeping all that great I let her sleep until about 8am this morning and then I went to go get her. It was so cute, I started rubbing her back and playing with her hair. She sprung up and said "We gotta go ba-bye?" I said Yes and she started getting her blankets off her and had me pick her up. When I gave her a kiss on the forehead I noticed she was burning up! While she seemed to be in a good mood for the first minute or two she all the sudden started crying and I could tell she wasn't feeling well. John was making fun of me last night because I started making a list of what I was going to do today. #1(take Addi to school) and #2 (go to the gym) have officially been thrown out the window. I took Addison's temperature and it is 102! Looks like I get to do a "Stay At Home Mom" trial run. I'm hoping and praying this isn't a sign of what we just went through a month ago. I will keep an eye on her ears and the first tug I see I'll be making an appointment with her doctor.

Friday, January 23, 2009

1st Day of Unemployment

Since this is the first day I would think I'd feel like I'm on vacation but in all honesty I don't. I'm actually kind of freaking out because I truly am trying to think of what I'm going to do? Perhaps I feel this way because my morning started off kind of strange. I heard the alarm go off and of course the first thing I thought was ahh I don't want to get up yet. Then it hit me that the alarm was actually for John. So, without hesitation I fell right back to sleep and didn't wake up again until I heard Addison crying in the baby monitor. When I looked at the clock and saw that it was 7:20 I was in a panic. I couldn't believe she slept that long and I automatically felt like my day was already off to a bad start. I hurried up and got out of bed, brushed my teeth and luckily John was pretty much ready so he began to get her up and change her clothes. My first thought was to just go drop off Addison come home change for the gym and then go, but I knew if I came home first before going to the gym there would be a chance I wouldn't actually go. So, I was able to feed Addi a little something and then we were out the door at 8am and at school by 8:15. I got to the gym and decided to only do the elliptical runner for 45 minutes rather than actually lifting and running. I have a feeling this fog I'm in right now had something to do with the lack of motivation (at least I got to the gym). One minute I'm ecstatic that I get to basically do whatever I want but the next minute I'm thinking about money and how am I going to survive this? Every mother no matter how their childhood was always wants their children to have a better life. When it comes to Addison and how I want her life to be better pretty much revolves around thoughts of money. I want to have the ability to buy her whatever she wants and needs and I want to buy her the things that I envisioned her having. I'm in this place right now where I need to STOP thinking about the money and focus more on the emotional part. While I've always given her more love than I ever thought I was capable of giving her, now I have the opportunity to be an even better mother. Most of you who know me I'm the big planner and everything has to happen this way, my days have to go by certain time frames, etc. So, when I woke up late I knew OMG life isn't going to be as organized anymore and I think I'm terrified. As I sit here typing this and tears are rolling down my face I don't know if I'm crying out of joy or fear. I've never felt so lost, at least before when I was unhappy at my job I knew I had a job and time to think about "what do I really want"? I know things will be figured out with time and luckily John isn't freaking out which is helping, but my crazy mind won't stop racing with both good and bad thoughts and I feel like I'm going insane. I need to keep remembering when John and I picked up Addison from school yesterday and as a joke I looked in the back seat and told Addison "do you want to stay home with mommy now" and her face lit up like she knew what I was saying and screamed "YEAH" it was the most beautiful moment with my almost 2 year old and husband to know perhaps this is my be the best mother and wife possible and perhaps take a step back to remember what really matters most...MY FAMILY!

John, thank you for being the most beautiful man both inside and out. I love you so much, I hope your ready for this new chapter in our life. I have a feeling there's going to be some bumps but this might be the best thing that ever happened to us.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Just Another Statistic

Well, I must say today was quite the experience. I can now be added to the thousands of people who have been laid off from their job. I'm still in shock and of course my mind is overwhelmed by the million thoughts running through it. We had to give our 2 weeks notice today at Addison's school which she loves so much. While they took it great, I didn't. I think this is the only thing that continuously makes me cry. I loved that we found this amazing school for Addison to attend and most importantly I really think it was really teaching her so many things. Well, for $229 a week its going to be way out of budget. While part of me is super excited because I've wanted to be a stay at home mom since Addi was born however, the other part of me is really going to miss buying whatever I wanted and not worrying about money. I have some time before NO money will be coming in from me, now I need to figure out what kind of job will really make me happy.

Ohh yeah by the way HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHN!!! Some birthday present. ;o(

Friday, January 9, 2009

Conner + Addison

I can't believe its been over a year and a half since we've had a playdate with the Jarretts. The Jarretts consist of Darcie, Chris and Conner. Darcie and John work together and lucky for John when he wasn't home with me when I was all pregnant and complaining he got to listen to it from Darcie. Darcie had Conner 5 weeks after I had Addison so we were basically pregnant at the same time. We finally had our 2nd playdate and it was completely different from the first one. The first time we got the kids together they were about 5 months old, we had fun taking a million pictures of them sitting in the Bumbo and just staring at them in awe. This past Sunday it was a totally different story. Conner got a new jungle gym for the backyard and the kids had a blast swinging and going down the slide. Its so weird to see how different they look and of course how they interact. I just can't believe they're going to be 2 soon!!! It'll be fun to continue getting together as the kids get older and of course comparing pictures. Thanks Darcie and Chris for an awesome dinner and for the wonderful time we had last Sunday.

(Addison & Conner July 2007)

(Can't Believe They're Almost 2!!)

(We Better Keep an Eye on Mr. Conner!!!)

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Mommy & Addi

One thing that kind of stinks when it comes to living out of state with no family and very few friends is there's hardly any pictures of me and Addison. I'm constantly getting yelled at by my family asking why the heck I'm never in the pictures. Well, its not always the first thing on John's mind to grab the camera and capture a moment. While of course I'm constantly taking pictures of Addi and John. Anyway Johns normally sitting on the chair with Addi at the end of night watching Backyardigans but this time it was my turn. I love when she's relaxing and lets me cuddle with her. She looks really tired in this picture but finally I have a picture of us sitting in the green chair!!!

Monday, January 5, 2009

Goals for 2009

Once again it is the beginning of another year and of course all I'm thinking about is...losing weight. I promised myself last year that weight wouldn't be the #1 thing on my mind because I would be back to my semi-perfect prebaby body. Well, its now 2009 and I'm fricken still talking about weight! Anyway I've decided to provide a list of goals I've come up with for 2009! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

1. Make sure John knows how much I love him everyday

2. Blog at least once a week (its great therapy)

3. Go to the gym at least 3 times a week

5. Only eat pizza once a month ;o)

6. Help plan the best wedding ever for Natalee and Chad

7. Thank God everyday for my amazing daughter

8. Only drink a Starbucks Mocha 3 times a week (Monday, Friday, Saturday or Sunday)

9. Continue to take LOTS of pictures of Addison