Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Ready for a Nanny!!!

Well, the honeymoon's over & Brody is officially a "real" baby! We were so convinced that things would be different this time, but I'm thinking the next 3 months are going to be pretty hard. ;o( Don't get me wrong its not quite as bad as when Addison was a baby, but at some points I feel as though things aren't looking good for us.
I was trying so hard to stay positive and look on the bright side of things, but the last 2 days have really put a damper on my cheerful side.
I have no idea what else I can feed this baby because he constantly wants to nurse. I've been against giving him formula, but I took the plunge today and gave him a bottle that you normally would get in the hospital, well the kid still wanted my boob after he finished that. Uggg, I hate this feeling of not knowing. He's burping fine, has lots of poop and pee. We did notice that it seems like he might have some air bubbles while I'm feeding him so I went out and got some gas relief medicine. I just can't believe how much this kid can eat. It seems like I'll nurse him for a good 30-40 minutes, he'll fall asleep and I'll burp him on my shoulder and as soon as he wakes up not even 15 minutes later he's fussy and ready to eat again. Of course I went on the Internet to see what google had to say and people think he's going through a growth spurt...REALLY he's not even 2 weeks old!!
Well, I'm keeping my fingers crossed that he doesn't develop colic like Addison and perhaps this is just a phase. I don't know what I'm thinking considering my husband has the worst stomach in the world. As I said before I want to stay positive, but when your functioning on 3-4 hours of sleep its hard to do that. I'm pretty much pissed at the world but hey...I have a beautiful baby boy!

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Got Milk?

I honestly don't remember being in this much pain when I nursed Addison. Isn't it so funny how you forget most of the horrible things you go through in life especially when you plan to go through them again one day? Holy crap my boobs are ready to EXPLODE!!! I have hit a major obstacle with this baby and it has to do with breastfeeding. Brody has been a pro when it comes to nursing up until yesterday! The nurses were complimenting him left & right while we were in the hospital since he was nursing like a champ. Everything was going great up until yesterday. At 10pm it was time for his last feeding before John & I were going to head to bed and our lil guy wanted nothing to do with either boob. I thought it would be fine with him just eating breast milk from a bottle, but I was wrong. After it only took him 2 minutes to eat a bottle of what he normally gets from my boob in 2o minutes the worrying began. I bought the highly recommended Dr. Brown bottles that will help prevent colic and all that good stuff, but that nipple seemed way too fast and the freaking out began. We finally got to bed around midnight since I had to pump, sterilize the new bottles and then finally feed him. It was an utter nightmare that I don't want to go through again. He woke up about an hour later to what sounded like he was gagging and struggling to breathe. We proceeded to feed him again from the bottle since he was freaking out (and still wouldn't nurse) and the same thing happened again a little bit later. Luckily by about 4am he was willing to nurse off the right breast and fall asleep great. Of course I was up every 5 minutes checking on him to make sure he was breathing ok.
I for sure think sleep deprivation is getting to me because I found myself bawling in the shower this morning and feeling frustrated because John decided to get in the shower before asking me if I needed help with anything first (of course I didn't need anything). Brody's still not feeding off the left breast even though I keep trying at each feeding. I've had to pump the left breast twice just to get some relief, I've busted out all my breastfeeding books and have gone on a million websites that continue to tell me to just continue to pump until he is ready to start feeding again. I'm sure it'll be fine in the end but I just don't understand what went wrong. Doesn't he know my left boob is the biggest and probably has the most milk storage. Hopefully he'll figure it out soon because even with pumping I'm still in ALOT of pain. Seriously, who pumps 3oz in 6 minutes on the 5th day of having a baby?
I have to say Thank You to my wonderful husband and sister Natalee who continue to remind me that Brody is only 5 days old and its ok that what seemed to be the perfect baby the first couple of days is now going through what "normal" babies do.

Monday, September 20, 2010

Family of Four!!!!

The day has finally arrived!!! We are a family of 4 (well, 5 if you include Roxy). I couldn't be any happier to announce that Brody Thomas has come into this world!!!

Our little guy arrived September 16th at 12:54, he weighed 7lbs 8oz and was 20 1/2 inches long. The delivery was amazing and couldn't be any easier. As most of you know we decided to be induced rather than let this happen naturally. First, we wanted to have this planned so we didn't have to worry about scrambling with getting Addison taken care of. We were so nervous since we weren't going to have any family come stay with us for the delivery, luckily I've made some amazing friends and they were more than happy to help take care of her. Also, I'm not going to lie...I didn't mind forgoing crazy painful contractions.
The decision to be induced was the best decision ever and I will never regret it!! Honestly, the worst part of my labor was when I had to get up at 4am and was having issues with my anxiety. Of course I was freaking out thinking about the worst case scenario of how labor and delivery was going to happen. I don't know why I do this to myself, but it happened and I had horrible diarrhea and was drive heaving all morning. Ugg, it was so irritating, but once I got to the hospital and got in my room I started to calm down and let things happen. I was a little embarrassed because about a 1/2 hour after the pitocin started I was ready for my epidural. Everybody kept telling me not to be a hero and to get it when I was ready. I'm such a wuss and was happy that I got it when I did because the contractions were getting pretty strong. So, my pitocin started at around 7:30am, my water was broken around 8:30am and I was ready to start pushing around 12:30pm. This delivery was a lot like Addison's, one minute I'm a 3 and the next its time to practice push. Luckily I've gone through it before because all the sudden I felt something was ready to come out. A backup nurse had to come in to check me because my main nurse was in the middle of delivering her other patient. She came in to check on me and sure enough it was time to have baby Brody. Luckily the "backup" nurse was just as amazing as the one I was with all morning and I felt completely comfortable with her. A call was made to my dr. since she was still at her office, luckily she's less than 10 minutes away because 2 contractions later Brody arrived!!! Unfortunately he came out so fast he ended up having some issues with his breathing so he had to be suctioned out for a while and some other dr.'s had to come in to check him out. Overall it looks like he just wasn't able to go through that transition stage that normally helps them clear out their lungs. After about 45 minutes of being looked at I was able to finally hold him and nurse him for the first time.

Seeing my little boy was for sure love at first sight. When Brody arrived I remember seeing all of his beautiful hair and just lost it. I keep thinking about all of that heartburn that I had to go through, it was worth all the disgusting TUMS I had to ingest. I was bawling and bursting with some crazy emotions. I feel so lucky to have 2 beautiful children and to have the chance to now have a little boy after having the best experience with my little girl.

I think Addison is just as in love as we are. While it took her a second to understand that Brody is no longer in my belly but in fact is a real little boy she is finally acknowledging the fact that he is here to stay. I don't know how life can get any better but I'm pretty sure my two kids are going to prove to me that it does! My family is complete and I can't stop smiling.