Saturday, October 30, 2010

Living a Lie!!

I've been trying so hard to put a smile on my face, shower & makeup everyday, dressed in something other than comfy clothes just so I can come across as though I'm doing great since having a baby...its all a LIE!!!! I am soooo beyond exhausted, frustrated, angry and just plain don't get it. I was so confident that Brody would be the perfect baby where all I would have to do is nurse him every 2 to 3 hours and stare at him while he slept. Hey, we paid our dues with Addison being so horrible with the constant crying...was I wrong!!! While Brody is a little more manageable I'm still finding myself wanting to breakdown and cry by 4pm everyday. I say "manageable" to make me feel better but from 7am to 6:30pm everyday during the week I am holding/rocking/feeding Brody. Once John gets home he's doing these things (besides feeding) until Brody will finally fall asleep and lay down for about 2 hours at a time which then I'm back to feeding/holding/rocking. We're trying everything from Gripe Water, Gas Drops, Formula...but it looks like nothing is going to work in our favor except I guess time.
The most discouraging thing about all of this is the fact that I feel so alone. I feel like I'm the only one who is going through this. I know so many people who just had babies or had babies in the last year and they seem perfect!! Why do I have the babies that are miserable? Luckily with great friends and family they keep reminding me that it will get better. At least Addison turned out ok and we have some cute kids. I'll try to keep my chin up and just hope each day will be the day that Brody will start showing signs of being better. I don't want these days to go too fast, but that's all I can do in order to get my sanity back. This is for sure a lose/lose situation!

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Pumpkin Carving

Its that time of year again!!! The last couple of years we've gone to Michigan to celebrate Halloween since its so darn hot here in Florida. Since I just had Brody there's no way we would be getting on a plane so we will be staying in Florida to go Trick or Treating.

We started the Halloween festivities by carving our pumpkins with the Masterson family last Sunday. Seeing how our pumpkins are now starting to rot we probably should of waited a little longer, but we had fun doing it so o'well.

I met my friend Liz through the playgroup we are both part of. She has a little boy named Joey that is right around the same age as Addison. They get along really well (even though Addi's starting to tell on her friends more these days) and we have so much fun with Will & Liz (Joey's parents) so naturally we asked if they wanted to join us for carving pumpkins. Luckily we did because Will had to help John out with our large pumpkin.

Joey is obsessed with superheros so of course he had to have a batman pumpkin that turned out awesome due to Will's mad skills! Liz brought this really cool kit that you put colored sticks in the pumpkin and then the light that came with it will make the sticks glow (that's what I'm getting next year) it was so cute!!! John was struggling with what to do with our pumpkins, he did a little piggy for Addison and then we did a face on our big one (not pictured) as I mentioned earlier Will had to take over with this one.

I still can't believe we're already at the end of October and will be celebrating Halloween in a couple of days. Life is going so fast which is exactly why I'm trying to keep us busy with new experiences and sharing these memories with good friends. I'm in such a great place right now, the only thing that could make life any better would be if Brody could sleep 4 hrs at a time! Hey a girl can dream.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

1st Night Out!!

I got to have my first night out this past Saturday!!! It wasn't exactly how I thought it would go, but it was nice not having any kids and having a couple of drinks. My dad was suppose to come last week to stay with us for the week, but sadly he came down with the flu and had to cancel. That put us in quite a pickle because he was suppose to babysit so that John & I could go see the best female comedian ever...Chelsea Handler!!!

I was on the fence on whether or not we should just sell our tickets or get a babysitter, but John came up with the best idea! Instead of spending money on a babysitter he decided he would stay home and I should take my friend Liz (who is also a stay at home mom) to the show instead. Well, Liz thought that was a great idea too so the two of us got to have a night out!

Liz was nice enough to drive especially since it would technically be the first time I was drinking in 9 months! We decided to leave nice and early so we could go to dinner and relax with a cocktail. After dinner we headed over to the show and laughed our booty's off! It was seriously the best show ever that left me smiling for over 2 hours straight. We were surprised that the show ended so early at 10pm, I initially thought "ohh we should go somewhere and get another drink" but then my sleep deprivation kicked in and I thought it would be best to just go straight home.
I was so nervous about what I was going to come home too, but lucky for me Brody was ready for bed by 11 and I was sleeping by 11:30.
Thanks to my amazing husband for coming up with this great idea & thanks to Liz for coming with me and making my first night out so much fun!!!

Monday, October 25, 2010

Fall Fun!!!

My favorite season growing up in Michigan is Fall, the best part was going to the cider mill, picking apples, the weather cooling down and anticipating Halloween coming. Since moving to Florida I haven't been able to find a place that is even close to what I loved the most in Michigan...until now!!! Thanks to my friend Mary she told me about a farm that have lots of these things I would miss so dearly if I didn't head back to Michigan during this season (like this year b/c we had a baby).

We met some friends at Hunsader Farm which is located in Bradenton about an hour away from our house. O-M-G this place is huge!!! They have everything you can think of (except apple picking and donuts & cider). Without having a cell phone there would of been no way for us to find our friends! As soon as we walked in there were 2 motorcycles riding around in a steel ball, it was the coolest thing I've ever seen. As you can see from Addison's face below she loved it too!

We finally found our friends at a huge playground located towards the back where they had a band playing. On our way walking over there was a ramp for BMX bikes & skateboarders to perform, a butterfly farm, lots of food stands with all the food you shouldn't eat & a huge tent setup for a free circus. The circus was interesting...

What was Brody doing while we were there for 2 hours you ask? He was SLEEPING!!!! He was soooo good, he woke up while we were watching the circus, but after we fed him a bottle he went right back to sleep. What a sigh of relief!!

Overall it was a great time & Addison even got to ride on a little pony, just like at the cider mill in Michigan. While I forgot to get my carmel apple and it was well above 80 degrees, I'm looking forward to going back next year. I had no idea what to expect, but we'll for sure have to stay longer than 2 hours!!! Its really comforting knowing that there is in fact a place to go that is a lot like home.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

A Lifetime Bond

I didn't realize how important it was for Addison to have a sibling until after Brody was born and I saw how much she was in love with her little brother. I hope the two of them will always be close and love each other no matter what.

Addison's been doing great with her little brother. I haven't noticed any jealousy issues or acting out, however we are dealing with a couple of minor problems. For some reason she does like to get in her brother's face and talk really loud and touch him all over so I am constantly telling her to back off, she's also decided that she needs to sleep with us in the middle of the night. I don't know if this has anything to do with Brody or just another phase that she's going through. Its taken her over a year to get out of her bed on her own and now for the past week I find her on the side of my bed each night telling me she can't sleep in her bed. We are allowing her to sleep with us right now since we have no energy to argue back with her. She seems to go through this every couple of months so hopefully this too shall pass. Other than that she's been great, especially at helping burp Brody. I couldn't be any happier with my little family and my two beautiful children (that still sounds weird)!

Friday, October 22, 2010

2nd Visitor!!!

We are so lucky to have so many people that care about us. Grandma Cheryl was the next visitor to come and see our new addition. Not only did she come to visit her grandchildren, but she also came to help us out with Mr. Brody so it would be one less week of stress. It was so nice to have an extra set of hands especially the 2nd night that she was here and she stayed up with him until 4am!!! Luckily she only had 1 night like that but I'm sure she was a little nervous and wondering what she got herself into!!! I was beyond thankful to have her here for a week and could do some running around when needed and take a nap when I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer.

We had so much fun hanging out and spending lots of time just staring at Brody. Its always fun sharing these moments with my mom and wondering if she had the same feelings that I go through on a daily basis. Most of the time these feelings are positive while other times I find myself wondering if I should call my dr. to increase my anxiety medication!! Overall I know one day I will be having this same moment with my kids and it will be here before I know it. I want to take every day in and remember that Brody will be Addison's age in a blink of an eye and this experience is going to be over. We still have a life time of memories & I want to make sure I can look back with no regrets (or maybe just minimal).

There's no question my kids are loved, but more importantly they are just in love with the people who love them. Being a mom is the best!!

Monday, October 18, 2010

Addison's First Field Trip!!!

Addison had her very first field trip at school last week. I was so excited, not just for her but for me too!!! Since my mom was here visiting I was able to play out my stay at home mom fantasy. The best part of not working when your kids are in school is being able to participate in school activities without worrying about missing work. I've been waiting for this day and it was all I hoped it would be!

Apparently I'm not the only mom who has this dream because all the kids except for 1 had their moms go. So, it wasn't exactly how I pictured it, but it was still great. The field trip took place at a small pumpkin patch not far from the school. The moms (except for 1) drove their own kids there. It was actually nice to talk to all the other moms and get to know them better. I swear every single kid in Addison's class are sooo cute. Personally my favorite has to be Sailey (the little girl in the zebra print pants below). She speaks her mind and tells ya how it is.

The kids went to a couple of different stations where they got to learn the history of pumpkins, hear a story and sing a song. Last but not least each child got to pick out their very own pumpkin which the kids got to take back to school to decorate in their classroom. So, of course Addison wanted the biggest pumpkin ever but little did she know there was a budget. Addison proceeded to pick the very biggest pumpkin she could for $2.

The kids had so much fun and were excited to have their parents there to share this special day. I know I had a huge smile on my face the whole time. My baby girl is getting so big & I know this is just the beginning to these special field trips.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Holy 1 Month Old Already!!!

Since everybody keeps telling me how much Brody looks like Addison I decided to look at some old pics. of Addi when she was a month old like Brody. Holy crap the two pics. at the top look like the same baby. While its kind of hard to tell babies apart the first couple of months this is just scary. As I've said before it looks like my genes aren't very dominate and both of our kids are going to look like John. The picture on the top is Brody and the picture on the bottom is Addison. These are taken around the same time in age...crazy!!!

Its hard to believe that Brody is already a month old!!! Life has been pretty crazy since his arrival but its been a pretty good crazy. Luckily we've had two visitors so far to help us out and have another one coming next week. So, 1/2 the time we've had help & the other 1/2 we've been going insane doing it on our own.

Overall Brody's a really good baby. I keep telling him he's lucky he's cute because the nights where he's screaming his head off I'm ready to throw in the towel and give up. I keep telling myself that it could be worse, but sometimes its hard to think like that in the moment. He seems to go in waves when it comes to being fussy. He'll have 2 days of being an angel and then BAM we'll have 2 days of him being the devil. Its funny though thinking back to when we first had Addison and the hell she put us through, I feel that now that I'm older and since we've gone through it once before I'm a little more patient. My back is remembering all the rocking I had to do with Addison, but overall he's pretty easy to calm down and figure out what he needs.

We took Brody for his 1 month checkup today and I must say the only thing that him & Addison have in common are their looks. Brody gained 1 1/2lbs in a week!!! Brody is now up to 9lbs 15oz and 22"!!! John was just shocked and in disbelief, this isn't so bad since he's only in the 50th percentile, but as most of you know it took Addi over 2 years to even be in a percentile b/c she was so tiny. I keep telling myself "at least I didn't have to give birth to a 10lb baby", its just crazy how much weight he is gaining just on me nursing him. We did start to give him formula last night & will probably continue to do that in the evenings since we were able to get 4 hrs of consistent sleep. Keeping my fingers crossed that this will help him sleep longer.

Life has for sure changed quite a bit going from 1 to 2 kids, but I love it. I look at Brody everyday and can't tell him enough how much I love him and give him a million kisses. I'm looking forward to the constant smiles and when he's showing more of a personality, but I'm also trying to enjoy this time too since we won't be going through this ever again!! ;o)

Monday, October 4, 2010

First Visitor...

My kids have the best Tete ever!!! I honestly feel so lucky to have such an amazing sister that wants to be part of my kids lives as much as possible. Natalee was able to be at the hospital with us when we had Addison and this time she was our first visitor after having Brody.

This visit was not only special because Natalee got to meet Brody for the first time, but I got to see my sister's baby bump!!! It was the coolest thing to see her start showing that she has a little baby in her belly. We always knew that once I had Brody she would only have 3 months left, now my crazy little man is here and she's going to be a mommy in less than 3 months!!!

Natalee's visit couldn't of come at a better time. Brody's been a pretty good boy overall, but he likes to be held a lot which takes me away from things I need to do. I loved that Natalee was more than happy to do the holding while I could get things done. She was more than amazing at calming him down when he was crying and upset, but I think the best part was watching her and Addison interact. Addison is soooo in love with her Tete and was beyond excited to have her Tete sleep in her bed. Addison had so much fun with her Tete that she even had a breakdown after Natalee had to leave because she missed her so much. We're hoping to go visit for Thanksgiving so perhaps this breakdown will be even more of a reason why we HAVE to go!

The long weekend for sure went by wayyyy too fast just like the past 2 weeks. While we didn't do much (which my sister probably loved since they are so busy preparing for their baby) the days came and went in a flash. I'm excited that she got to see Addison play soccer and enjoy Brody as a newborn. I don't think I can wait until January to see her again so those damn plane tickets better come down for Thanksgiving. Thanks to her amazing new camera we were able to capture lots of pictures of Mr Brody and the fun weekend we had with our first visitor.