Monday, February 4, 2013


 (1st time trying cereal...she's crossing some big girl territory now!)  STOP IT!
I can't help myself but make this entire entry about this little beauty right here.  I can't believe she's already 4 months old and I must say she's getting cuter by the second.  I could just eat her up!  I'm so tempted to steal her, unfortunately I don't think my sister would be too happy about that.  Miss Anistyn  is getting so big and looks happier and happier each picture I see.  I love this baby girl so much!  Sese thinks about you and your brother everyday!  I'll see you soon!!!

Friday, February 1, 2013

Turning 34...

Well, my nemesis decided to pay me a visit the day before my birthday and I had no idea what I was in for!  My nemesis, you ask?  Well, a good ol' migraine.  I was in the middle of doing gymnastics class with my little man when all the sudden I felt really weird and started to feel those ohh familiar orbs that haven't paid me a visit for quite a while.  I ran over to my bag and took my trusty pill thinking life will be back to normal in just 20 minutes.  Well, I was completely wrong and it went downhill from there.  I was planning to do some running around after class, well this migraines had a mind of its own.  I decided it would be safer to just go home and let this run its course.  Once I got home my symptoms only got worse.  I was thinking "ohh this isn't something I can't handle with some time".  As my right side of my body started going numb (arms, face, tongue) it got worse.  I became completely disoriented and couldn't even remember how to turn a movie on for Brody.  I had to call John and have him walk me through it.  He was totally shocked and concerned since the texts I sent to him made no sense at all.  I proceeded to take a second pill since it looks like this was a heavy one.  I felt better and decided to lay down after Brody went down for his nap.  When I woke up, I felt much better, but then as it was about time to leave to pick up Addison from school my eye sight decided to go on me again.  Thank god for John because he was more than happy to go get Addison for me rather than risking another disorientation.  Luckily the 3rd migraine pill I took helped with all the symptoms I was having as far as my senses, but I had an awful pain in the back of my head as though someone was hammering away in this area.  I decided to take some prescription pain medication to help with that.  I woke up the next morning feeling great and excited it was my birthday.  Everything was good until mid day when my body caught up to all the pills I've been taking.  I tried putting on a happy face and let the kids celebrate my day, but I was in bed by 7:30pm and let John take over the night duties.  I got up at 9:30pm still feeling like crap (almost flu like symptoms) and after I brushed my teeth, washed my face I was back to bed until the next morning.  Seriously, my body was screaming at me for help.  I felt like I was losing all control of my body and there was nothing I could possibly do.  I woke up yesterday morning still feeling exhausted.  I was suppose to attend a field trip with Addison and her class at 10:30, so after dropping the kids off at school and daycare I went home and slept again for another hour.  Luckily that hour gave me the energy I needed to pull myself together and head to Addison's field trip.  When I walked in slightly late I found Addison in tears because she didn't think I was going to come.  I literally almost lost it and not was I only sad that I almost let her down, but I was mad.  Mad at the fact I let myself get this stressed out to where my body was rejecting all the things I had on my to do list for the week.  Now that I'm thinking more clearly and feeling "back to my old self" I can't help, but just be disgusted by the fact that my body can let me down like that or I guess let my body down like that.  I've been running around like a crazy woman for over a thing after another and I think all of this stuff with renovating the house just put me over the edge.  I've decided to take a step back and look at the bigger picture which of course is my beautiful family.  Yeah I haven't cleaned my house in a month, yeah I really wanted my backyard completed in the 3 days the guy said it would be done in and yeah I want to lose weight by being a psycho gym rat.  However, my body just can't handle this extra stress and I need to make sure I have my priorities in order.  Why was I chosen to have these horrific migraines?  I have no idea, I truly believe that God doesn't give you something you can't handle.  I'm praying that if I calm down a little bit he won't put me through this again, because I don't know how I can emotionally get through it AGAIN!  As I said before I had a lot of anger yesterday, simply because this episode stole 3 days of my life, but I need to remember 3 days compared to a lifetime is ok.  I've been kissing and loving on my kids more than ever and just thanking John for helping me get through it.  This wasn't the best birthday and while it will be one I'll never forget it will remind me to be thankful for what I do have and not what I'm going to have.  Its been a rough 3 days, but I'm back and ready to take the world on...again...but at a reasonable pace!